Wednesday, March 30, 2011

I never imagined myself as someone who would suffer (or who DOES suffer) from any sort of seasonal depressive issues... and I don't really think it's anything too serious with me, but tonight I realized how much of a funk I have been in lately- and I didn't realize it until I took Deacon outside after school for a popsicle in our backyard.  I was laying there on a blanket in my shorts and tanktop soaking in the 80 degree weather and beautiful breeze... and all of a sudden an all too familiar feeling hit me- true happiness. I'm not trying to be all emo on you all- I've been happy lately... but in a funk- and very much NOT motivated.  But those 10 minutes I spent in the sun it was just absolute pure happiness- it felt amazing.  So I'm realizing that working from home these funks are all too easy to just fall into and not realize it... and it doesn't help that my down time at work comes during the crappiest time of year in regards to weather.  The funniest part to me is that I would never imagine that someone in California could suffer from a seasonal type of disorder- I mean, who could be depressed living in California (all Republican and tea party friends are not to answer this question)???!!!  But once you live here for a while the warm weather becomes normal... and cold weather becomes anything less than 60 degrees.  And while it doesn't snow where we live, it rains and it's gloomy... and today I realized just how much I miss my true California weather.  




This doesn't bode well for a move back to Ohio anytime soon ;-)  

2 comments:

Natalie said...

Nice! Joseph and I were just lamenting yesterday that Chicago's cold season is FAR TOO LONG. I don't think we'd go as far as Cali, but definitely dreaming of an eventual move to the Carolinas or something...

anneeverswoman said...

...and Cincinnati-argggghhhhhh !