Tuesday, May 5, 2009

First day at daycare...

Wow... his first day at daycare. I just honestly cannot believe the time is going so quickly. It feels like just yesterday we found out we were pregnant- and here I am blogging about sending him to daycare already.

When we sent Deacon to daycare I was a nervous wreck... for as long as I could remember I had wanted to be a stay-at-home mom... and when I realized that wasn't in the cards for me (my own choice) I dealt with a lot of guilt. Was I making the right decision? Was I screwing him up by sending him to a complete stranger all day? Would he forget me? Did I pick the right daycare? Gosh, I beat myself up daily for a LONG time... what working mom hasn't done that? But I knew being a stay at home mom was not for me- I was happier working outside of the home AND being a mom. I slowly came to realize how good daycare was for Deacon... and slowly, over the years, I stopped beating myself up {as much}. With Zac, I have very little worry regarding daycare for a number of reasons... but mainly, all I have to do is look at Deacon and know Zac will turn out just fine being a full time daycare baby. Deacon is so well adjusted, so smart, so social, so... normal (HA!). We have the most amazing daycare provider who loves our boys and treats them as her own... what more could I ask for?

So did I spend the day sad and worried about Zac? Of course... but I also loved going back to my normal work routine, knowing full well that both my boys were having a good day.


Unknown said...

Awww ... I am SURE that he will get LOTS of love and care at daycare.

Adrianne said...

Glad the day went well. Funny when I took Logan I was so happy! Now when I took Cole I cried! I guess I just knew he was my last baby and I would never have another!!